The most #carbs and #protein in a meal we’ve ever had. #germanarmshotel #kransky #hotdog #porkbelly #potato
Ready for the next #adventure #gangster #fauxleatherjacket and #sunnies here we go =p
#Wow the #greatgatsby #movie has one location #filmed in the place we got engaged!! #rivendell in #Sydney! So #pretty and #cg’d haha
I just want to do a proper blog post in this account, just a general post on girls and emo-ness.. well maybe just me and emotions.
First I would like to thank God for making me introverted, because I can be therefore introspective about things, I can observe, and learn and think. I can mull, I can rationalise things such as these, things that are irrational.
That’s not to say that an extrovert cannot, but maybe they have less of that on their mind, they think other things, things outside of themselves rather than internal.
So today I was really emo, I think it is because I have been working really hard the last few days, lacking sleep, feeling tired, sporadic eating patterns, up and down moods and stress levels, hormone levels etc..
This has always been a pattern I found, that whenever I am really busy and stressed Plus I have my monthly hormonal time that is when my emotions get out of whack..
Thank God I was at home, to cry it all out.
(I was crying at small things but the root of the thing is something I am afraid of that is magnified more than it needs to be)
I was a bit teary on the weekend too but it was in public so I had to force myself to shut down those tears and calm down as quickly as possible and reserve it for a later time.. now, today :)
But as girls, we really need to find a sanctuary where we can express these vulnerable emotions, to release them, to realise it is ok, to realise this is how we get rid of our stress, this is how we move on from the issues. Crying is one way.. but being understood by the person who may see or know about it helps a lot too.
What can help is also being able to laugh about it and to just know these are just passing emotions really helps. So that’s where my logical side comes in.. the side that thinks about these things during or after my emo side.. I really thank God for giving me wisdom in this area and to be able to warn anyone who witnesses them.
I’m sure you’ve all been in a state where you may accidentally let out one or two of those emotions and had those people not fussed or been overly concerned or ask about or draw out those emotions further you would have been able to just stop right there and deal with it later..at a more appropriate time. But when people see someone cry they can’t help but want to help, want to ask if they are ok, want to draw out the whys and the hows.. and then the fountain comes, the gushing waterfall.. the uncontrollable wails even.. or you perhaps had to run away into the bathroom and lock yourself there.. only to be chased by your friends or overly involved individuals.. hehe.
I find it is helpful to just tell them you are ok and you just need a moment to calm down, that you are just feeling more emotional than normal and to tell them we can talk later when it’s appropriate.. and not in public or at a time where something is about to happen. If you are able to muster that logical side out and attempt to calm and reassure your emotional side I think it will really help you and the other party calm down and focus on your task :)
And then at the appropriate time you may release all your emotions.
Once you start you can’t stop, the emotions can keep coming out, they draw out more and more pain at times, the way I can describe it is like breaking the sides of a dam.. the water behind the walls push through and drag more and more of the wall out and it opens up and until all the water is gone it won’t stop and you cannot stop it.
I think just now I have released all my thoughts into this page like the dam.
Hope this was somewhat helpful if not thought provoking, or just something you can relate to.
talk soon :)
Just watered my #succulent, still very #pretty and alive after 2 weeks ^^ they really do survive on little #water ;)
#lowmaintenance #plants #potplant
I made my very own #budgie card for a friend just now hehe. Maybe I could make more? And print them? Anyone want one? =p
Just finished a beautiful but long shoot with #pressies to end it! #xmas is here! #flowers for free! #peonies
Is it normally this busy at the airport on a sunday night? Everyone around me are crabby cos their ride is lost or stuck in traffic. #waiting #busy #airport